Sundari Sardar: The Only Answers I Have

“I was born for sacrifice; dreams are a luxury.”

I can not tell you what I want
There is only what I have
I can not share my dreams
there is here
there is now
my reality

To be me is to sacrifice
To have joy is to remember it is only God’s to give
I will accept this and all other gifts offered to me

You want to know so many things
Things I can not tell you
Mysteries I never thought to solve

I do not know my age

I know
My daughter is 15

After I have cleaned
my eighth house
I will go and pay
her school fees